Rush Hour

Best. Movie. Ever.

"What's up, my nigga?" Jackie Chan = amazing.

The rents and my brother are at church, and I don't go until later, so I have the house to myself. I'm dead tired... I had to work last night and it was pretty busy. I also had some of that chocolate-vanilla-pecan cuppaccino they sell, and I think I'm addicted. Very good.

Not much going on today, just Life Teen. And hunting around on Gaia for a half-decent roleplay. Total boredom. >.>

Everyone else went ice skating yesterday, while I was stuck working. Apparently the Ice Guard looks good this year. ^.^ I have to go next week... they sent me pics and it made me kinda sad that I was missing out.

So bored. Nothing to write. Uuuuugh...

Bright and Early With an APUSH Outline

That's right, there's one due Monday. And I have to work tonight, so I'd better try and get it done. Ugh.

Well, Bulldogs lost the game last night... predictably. They were up 22-0 at halftime, and then through a series of events that I don't understand (I don't like nor understand football), they came out 22-22, and lost in overtime. I guess I should start pretending to like football, because still more people are pissed at me over my lack of excitement about the game. Cliff wasn't there, either- I guess he only does home games.

Apparently my mother was really mad about something I did last night... so it'd be in my best interest to get out of the house. My dad's doing some stuff later- just general stuff, bank, home depot, etc.- and I want to go with him, but I have this stupid outline that I should be doing right now. It won't be an excuse for my mother, to get out of chores and listening to her yell at me, so what's the point? I think I'm gonna go.

Feel like crap. Tired and achy. Better not feel this way when I go to work.

6:20 in the morning... ugh...

Let's see, what's on the agenda for today...?

4Sight tests, that's what! ;.;

Stupid bubble tests. We'll take them at least five times this year, and they are not important, no matter what Staub says. We never even see our results! Stupid state-issued tests... so no first through fifth period, which defeats the joy of a) not having block scheduling today and b) having a half day.

I do get to have physics, though, and I'm not just glad about that because Cliff is in it! We probably won't have time to do anything, since the class will only be about twenty minutes long, but Wargo amuses me.

Other than that, football game at Mowhawk today, and I of course have to go with the band... I wonder if Cliff is going, since he's the mascot? Eh, well, even if he did he probably wouldn't talk to me.

Well, at least Miki and I will be able to do our thing on the bus ride home... meaning using iPods/cell phone for microphones and sing as loud as we possibly can. Whether we're on key or not is up to fate. ; )

Falling Out

I'm falling out of grace with the world
They say I've lost my midas touch
What turned to gold now turns to rust
I'm falling out of line with all the stars
That flood my dreams with their guitars and magazines

[Chorus]
Face down this carpet tastes like coffee grounds
Ground into my face now
And every angle's covered with just another (band-aid)

I'm falling out of style with the current way things are
The things that make conforming hard
I'm falling out of control and you just can't stop me now
I'll fight as long as time allows

I'm out here way beyond
A shadow of a doubt
And I know I'm never falling out of favor with you [x2]

I won't think twice or even three times
About taking a gamble with you
Cause with my life you have been so kind
I take all my comfort from you

[Chorus]

I'm out here way beyond
A shadow of a doubt
And I know I'm never falling out of favor with you

How convenient!

Does this sum me up lately, or what?

Yeah, I thought so.

I am socially challenged.

I was kinda planning on talking to Cliff today, just to try and have a regular conversation, but I couldn't bring myself to do it in physics and when I saw him after school he was with Caitlyn. Why am I so lame?!

So, aside from my social ineptness, Gabbie, Bridget, Emily Frank and I stayed after for a while to make some signs for the Halloween dance coming up. KK came up with a half-decent name- the Haunt. At least it isn't "Spooktacular" or something lame like that. I can't paint at ALL, but I think it looks okay... though I wish "The Haunt" had been done in all black and orange. I didn't paint that part, so it's not my problem! I probably won't even be able to go, since I have to work.

I actually think I did okay on my Geometry test today... better than I ever did on any of Mr. Majors'. Quite a few people came up to me to ask if I really said something about people who play sports being unintelligent. Why would I say that?! Honestly! I don't know why Maggie would spread that around. My best friends play sports! One of the smartest girls in my grade is a terrific athlete! I really need to find out what Maggie's problem is... but I'm kind of scared of her. Guess it's from freshman year.

No luck with ice skating Saturday- everyone else can go, but the sessions are both when I have to work. Damn you, work schedule!

Oh, and I still have to keep on the DL about Miki's problem, but I can say this- something really positive happened today. She's lucky- the guys she likes tend to return her feelings, even if in the first two cases it took a while. Too bad I can't get lucky like that with Cliff! <3

Well, that about covers it. Might put another post up later, might not. Here's hoping for a good movie on ABC tonight!

Can I have some extra drama with my junior year?

I'm guessing I must have asked for some, because after thinking it over, this is all totally NUTS! All of the Cliff-Maggie-Caitlyn stuff I can handle, but there's another issue floating around that only partially concerns me. Well... actually it totally does, because it involves my best friend and she needs my support.

Last year, everything was pretty cool. Met Chris during band camp, really liked him, turned out he really liked me, so we dated. The only problem was that when I started to think I didn't want to date him anymore, I waited and waited to tell him because I felt bad. Shoulda told him sooner, but eh, what can you do? We're still friends and stuff, so it's all good.

Or not.

Now he likes my best friend, Miki. And she has the same problem I did. She wants to tell him no, but she doesn't want to hurt him. Trust me, guys (and I don't know who I'm referring to here because no one reads this anyway), Chris tends to let every little thing that happen affect him. Remember how I was after the whole notebook incident yesterday? For Chris, it would be the end of the world.

Though I really hope no one would call him that, seeing as he's a guy...

UGH. Well, the gang's all going to Brady's Run on Saturday to ice skate, and Miki invited both Chris and Dillan (can't say too much on that, even if nobody DOES read this). We'll just have to see what happens.

(Can the skating rink handle our bigger group? Last year there were four of us inexperienced skaters and we managed to cause some havoc... unintentionally, of course... good thing the ice guards are there! <3)

One more thing!

Last post tonight, my non-existant readers, and it isn't Cliff-related, I swear! Am I the only one who finds a guy lying in his boxers on a bunch of beads to advertise gum disturbing? This is what I get for watching the CW. >.>

Butterflies!

Um, why do I have butterflies now? I mean, the whole thing with Cliff happened hours ago. I couldn't even talk to my dad when I was alone with him earlier, and anyone who knows me knows that I live for the time I get to spend with my dad. I think I need to chill out and get a life. >.>Ugh, who am I kidding?! I don't have a chance with him anyway...

Oh, and fyi- y being anyone who reads this, which is probably no one- I'm not holding a horrible grudge against the girl he likes, or anything. I would be lying if I said I wasn't jealous, because I am, but I'm not flying around trying to make them hate each other. I'm not that shallow.

... Though I can't say I wouldn't mind if there was a tearless, hard-feeling-less split between them. Oh man, I shouldn't say that. If it happens, it happens, and I probably wouldn't be who catches his attention next. I'm going to stop digging myself into a hole here.

... mmm, why does the first guy I really feel like I like get caught up not even a month after he gets here?!

Total humiliation...

Why do some people rock hard (like my friends), and yet others suck horribly?

Um, a little background info. There's a new kid in my class this year, Cliff. He's basically amazing- really cute, really nice and polite, he drives a motorcycle for crying out loud! Trumps all other guys at my school.

And today, thanks to a certain someone, I've been totally humiliated in front of him.

To get it out quickly. Cliff borrowed my English notes at lunch, and I was kinda happy because I kept my cool... which I'm rather bad at doing. He returned it at the end, blah blah blah, I went to English.

And you know what? Two pages past my last notes was a nice little message from a certain someone (not Cliff, thank God) informing me that I was... well, something disgusting. And Cliff saw it. I could have died. I honestly felt like I was going to cry through the first part of the class. I thought he'd only asked for my notebook so that she could write that.

While I was sharing this story with a friend of mine during class, he came up, cool as all hell (he's always like that, never awkward or anything), and asked if he could have my notebook again. He took it, ripped out the page with the note, crumpled it and threw it away. He apologized and everything, said he didn't want her to write it, etc. I didn't really believe him, so I acted like an idiot and said, "Is that the whole reason you borrowed it? So she could write that?"

I could tell he wasn't lying, because he was so serious. He said he wasn't that type of guy, he wouldn't do that, and that he was sorry again. And instead of saying something smooth or cool or something, do you know what I said? "It's all good."

HONESTLY. I guess this is why I'm a loser with guys. ;.; He likes someone else anyway. No chance.
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For anyone who actually knows me (probably no one)... whatever Maggie Deitrich said about me thinking those who play sports are unintelligent is a lie. Almost every one of my friends play sports. God, why did I ever open my mouth within a ten foot radius of her? Should've learned my lesson in freshman year.