Total humiliation...

Why do some people rock hard (like my friends), and yet others suck horribly?

Um, a little background info. There's a new kid in my class this year, Cliff. He's basically amazing- really cute, really nice and polite, he drives a motorcycle for crying out loud! Trumps all other guys at my school.

And today, thanks to a certain someone, I've been totally humiliated in front of him.

To get it out quickly. Cliff borrowed my English notes at lunch, and I was kinda happy because I kept my cool... which I'm rather bad at doing. He returned it at the end, blah blah blah, I went to English.

And you know what? Two pages past my last notes was a nice little message from a certain someone (not Cliff, thank God) informing me that I was... well, something disgusting. And Cliff saw it. I could have died. I honestly felt like I was going to cry through the first part of the class. I thought he'd only asked for my notebook so that she could write that.

While I was sharing this story with a friend of mine during class, he came up, cool as all hell (he's always like that, never awkward or anything), and asked if he could have my notebook again. He took it, ripped out the page with the note, crumpled it and threw it away. He apologized and everything, said he didn't want her to write it, etc. I didn't really believe him, so I acted like an idiot and said, "Is that the whole reason you borrowed it? So she could write that?"

I could tell he wasn't lying, because he was so serious. He said he wasn't that type of guy, he wouldn't do that, and that he was sorry again. And instead of saying something smooth or cool or something, do you know what I said? "It's all good."

HONESTLY. I guess this is why I'm a loser with guys. ;.; He likes someone else anyway. No chance.
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For anyone who actually knows me (probably no one)... whatever Maggie Deitrich said about me thinking those who play sports are unintelligent is a lie. Almost every one of my friends play sports. God, why did I ever open my mouth within a ten foot radius of her? Should've learned my lesson in freshman year.